May this year be better than the last!
Sunday, August 22, 2010
...but I haven't wanted to!
I started this blog for a couple of reasons. First, I really needed a place to vent. Sometimes taking care of Noah is scary, overwhelming, and frustrating. I decided if I could spew words onto a computer screen I could acknowledge all of those feelings I thought I shouldn't be having and LET IT GO! And Poof! I'd be a better mom.
Secondly, I wanted a journal of life raising and taking care of Noah. I wanted a place where I could look back and read about the things that have happened. Now, when I reread past posts I think to myself "WHOA! I remember how hard THAT was and now it seems like a piece of cake compared to THIS!" (which actually happens pretty frequently).
That's Noah...always keeping me on my toes and reminding me to appreciate what is happening NOW!
BUT then this blog got another purpose. It became a window into our lives and a way for you, dear reader, to check in on our little guy.
Why have I been avoiding Bloggerville like the plague? Well, when I was in Colorado I became Trish again. My old self. The girl who has friends, hangs out, goes to the bar for a cocktail, LAUGHS more than she cries. Only this time I was, in addition to all of that, a plain ol' mom. Girlfriends flooded the house with their stories about their days, jobs, kids, husbands, and occasionally complaining about every day problems! I lapped up every second like it was the last drop of water in the desert. I wasn't treated like a sick kid's mom or pitied (out loud anyway). It was incredibly wonderful.
That being said, I haven't wanted to dive back into "Sick Kid" world.
So I'm not going to (not just yet anyway). I don't wanna and I won't.
BUT you, my friend, do deserve to know how Noah is.
So I'll tell you. Just about him. Because on this trip he too became someone different. He became just a kid. A kid who isn't hammered 6 times a week with therapists or constantly visiting a doctor for this reason or that. He became JUST Noah.
So, who is Noah? He is an absolutely adorable little boy who found his smile in Colorado.